The Scent Keeper_A Novel by Erica Bauermeister

Author:Erica Bauermeister [Bauermeister, Erica]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Fiction, Women, Family Life, General, Coming of Age, magical realism
ISBN: 9781250200143
Google: 4yJwDwAAQBAJ
Publisher: St. Martin's Press
Published: 2019-05-21T18:45:31+00:00

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“Hey, Em!” Fisher said, coming into the cabin one afternoon. “I found something.”

“What?”

“It’s a surprise. I have to show you.” His green eyes were bright.

I put my coat over the T-shirt I had slept in and followed him out. The air was changing, the openness of the trees and dirt tightening in preparation for colder weather. It was strange to smell the woods slowing down, getting ready for sleep while everything inside me felt so open and alive.

I breathed in, the cool air tickling the inside of my nose, colored by the fragrance of us that was still hiding in my shirt. For the first time in my life, I was looking forward to the shorter days of winter. I smiled as I watched Fisher’s excitement lengthen his loping stride.

Fisher led me past the dormant vegetable garden, but instead of turning down the now well-maintained trail to the lagoon, he headed in the opposite direction, pushing through the overgrowth. My breath caught. I knew what path we’d pass going this way, but if it was as hidden as the rest had been, there was a chance he’d missed it.

He hadn’t. He stopped and stood, grinning, at the turnoff for the bluff.

“I found the coolest place,” he said.

Every memory I had been avoiding came crashing back into my head. I saw myself, running down this trail, my foraging bag full of bottles. I saw myself on the bluff, hand raised.

My fault.

I should have told Fisher the truth before, told him I wished that trail had never existed. But I hadn’t, and now he’d discovered the only place I never wanted him to see. I reached forward and grabbed his arm.

“You’ve already been there, huh?” he said. “I guess it was too much to hope. Still, we should go—”

“No.”

He stopped and looked at me, the joy draining from his face.

“Tell me,” he said.

The secrets sat there, waiting in my throat. I couldn’t imagine what this island would be like, what Fisher and I would be like, if they came out. Words were like scents that way; they changed the very air you breathed.

I shook my head, once.

His eyes, so open and expressive, went flat. “I told you everything,” he said. “Things I never told anybody.”

I looked at him. Three hours before, we’d been in bed, his skin warm against mine. In my happiness, I’d convinced myself I’d given him everything, but that was a lie. I’d kept this from him because I didn’t want him to know what I’d done. I’d wanted to be only myself, not what had happened before. As if that is ever possible.

But there was more to it than that, I knew. This one memory, that face in the water looking up at me, belonged only to my father and me. In a strange way, it was the one thing that hadn’t been touched by someone else’s stories or smells. It was all I had left. That, and a scent-paper I’d never burn.

“I can’t,” I said to Fisher.

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